Is it me, or is the weather getting insanely hotter and hotter by the day?
Just the heat alone is enough to kill a whole clan of vampires sleeping in their coffin. Seriously, this heat is making me sick. And I don't mean it figuratively.
Ugh. Please. Start raining. Let me see them dark skies in the afternoon. Let me hear the charming whispers of the wind that brings them rain clouds. Oh how I miss you so.
Oh, and bring away this icky sickness. Thanks. Much appreciated. I'm getting sick of feeling sick.
I got my first medal EVER. Wow. Feels great! Special thanks to my friend Royston for pacing me and the constant encouragement during the run. Couldn't have done it without you!
No doubt I started the day feeling like a torn and stonified panda. No doubt I was late for the concert and missed out a huge chunk of guzheng action.
But the rest of the concert that I caught rocks! Feel the energy man! To be part of that synergy. Wow. I was smiling the whole way and I can't help but let my fingers do the dancing for me. How I wish I could be part of a band man. Rocking it out all day long. ROCK IT!!!! 珊瑚海 by guzheng and the band would have made Jay Chou cry. Beautiful.
Ahh... a Saturday well spent, I would say. I probably would have slept the day away after the guard duty if not for the concert. Guard duty this Friday was the most exciting one yet! The thunderstorm was like... WOAH!! The symphony of the early morning!
I think it's about time for me to knock out. Only had a total of like 5hours of sleep. Interrupted sleep, mind you.
Hmm.... I wonder... how does purple roses taste like?
Ever since that particular day, I've told myself to train up so that I will not have to deal with loss again. That, perhaps, if I become stronger, I will be able to provide a better sense of security to my special someone so that she will not have to leave me.
Well, army happened, and I trained. I trained hard. I told myself I needed the strength to protect the people around me.
That was a lie. Really. It was never the main reason why I trained so hard. I am just a coward who wants to run away from reality. Training just tires me out and stop me from thinking about anything. It numbs my senses.
The fact of the matter is the product of my training will be with me. It will never walk away from me. I know that. And that helps me to sleep better at night. I'm just a low-esteem idiot with no sense of security. Yes friends, you can laugh at me. But this is who I am.
But the problem now is that I'm starting to have back problems. I have no idea why. I just want to get back to training and this is impeding my schedule. I hate it. I hate it when I can't do what makes me sleep better at night.
All I want to do is to train and be happy. Girlfriend? Yeah, sure. But I don't think I can deal with a loss again. I'm scared.
So, please, please be healthy again, dear back. Let the pain go away.
