Tuesday, September 09, 2008, 11:00 PM
A day has passed since I got my pink ic.
It's weird, but I can't explain this empty feeling. It's as though something is lost from your life and yet you can't see it. I'm glad that my 2 years of NSF life is over, believe me, I am, but something just isn't right.
I guess I should be happy that I am finally able to get back to the civilian life. But 2 years isn't a short time... habits have to be changed. I'm so accustomed to life in the army that I'm just waiting for things to happen at home.
Back in camp, everything has been planned out for us. Breakfast in the morning, followed by area cleaning(which seems to have become a forgotten culture) and than PT. Lunch in the afternoon followed by dinner at night.
I never have to think of what to do tomorrow because everything is printed on the daily routine orders.
I guess the grass is greener on the other side.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not thinking of going back in there voluntarily, but I need a while to get the civilian concept back into my head. I need to jump start this brain of mine that has been inactive for the past 2 years and get back on track.
Failure is not an option.
(I miss her already.)
